by purplesofa 22 Replies latest jw friends
Purple, the situation you are in sucks. I've been there too. Thing's should calm down for you in a few months or so, it did for me anyways. Now my only problems are these Kingdom Hall sex fantasies!
Seriously, hope things settle down for ya soon..
GBL
Most of the brothers and sisters that I know and are close to me I love very dearly. I feel like I am hurting them.......I am sure they are concerned.
Maybe they are, but you ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THE EMOTIONAL WELL BEING OF OTHERS!!
The dubs put you in a really co-dependent state that way "If you leave, you are hurting everyone!!" It's not like these people are your kids, for gods sake, they're grown ass adults!! And if you leave, your not choosing to shun them, are ya? It's so twisted!!
((((((((((((Purps)))))))))))
Don't let them turn this around on you. They lied to you and then get all hurt when you point that out and leave? Seems like the blame for any hurt is on the liars not the lied-to.
So sorry you are hurting...
(((((((((((Hugs!))))))))))))
Jeannie
THANKS FOR ALL YOUR WONDERFUL POSTS........ I have things I want to say about them but right now this part of a Don Henley song keeps going over and over in my head.....better than a kingdom melody......!!!!!
I?m learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
And the more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I?d figured out
I have to learn again
I?ve been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it?s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don?t love me anymore
There are people in your life who?ve come and gone
They let you down you know they hurt your pride
You better put it all behind you baby; life goes on
You keep carryin? that anger; it?ll eat you up inside
I?ve been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thought seem to scatter
But I think it?s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
You are doing great PS !! Keep it up and remember what the WTBTS is all about.
These times are so uncertain
There?s a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age? The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They?re the very things - we kill I guess
Pride and competition
Cannot fill these empty arms
And
the work I put between us
You know it doesn?t keep me warmI?m learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
And the more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I?d figured out
I have to learn againI?ve been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it?s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don?t love me anymore
Extensive healing and understanding in that song, for me it was like a national anthem of awareness. Don Henley speaks volumes, directly to my soul.
There exist sageful, healing energy in much of his music.
This is truly the End of the Innocense.
Sharing your feelings with trusted folks on this forum will help you build emotional stability. There's nothing wrong in feeling for others, just don't forget your feelings. If you have a close friend to share your inner thoughts, it will help, believe me.
Golf
At this time in your life it is extremely important to respect and honor your inner wisdom, and withdraw from situations and people that are disruptive.
What is important now is to lesson drama, and be in an environment conducive to silent reflection. Like a caterpillar in it's cocoon.
For now do not worry about what others think. Be extremely gentle and kind with yourself. Listen to your body. If something you are thinking or doing makes the muscles tight and the tummy tense, then stop doing it. Trust that there is inner wisdom speaking. Often the most precious and important of direction comes as the most subtlest and gentlest breeze. You must be very present and attentive to aware it.
Be patient. Take walks out into nature if you can. Much is falling away. Allow both sadness and joy to play, to come and go. Be accepting and open. Nonjudgmental.
j
prophecor said:
This is truly the End of the Innocense.
I believe that
Extensive healing and understanding in that song, for me it was like a national anthem of awareness. Don Henley speaks volumes, directly to my soul.
He is a true songwriter.......He hasn't done a bad song ever.
James Thomas,
Thank-you for encouraging me to take care of me and care for myself.
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purps
Hey Everyone,
The weekend has ended much better than it started.
Thank-you very much for you support and comments.
I feel normal in what I am going through.
I am working on some self-help things. Listening to the inner me. Looking into going to college. Thinking of a dream I have of a business I would like to have.
My relationship with my children is growing deeper too. I can't believe I let meetings be more important than them.
I was looking something up in my bible and ran across notes written in the back of the book from the Co's visit.
Why people quit attending meetings:
1. Sports/hobbies
2. Social Activies
3. Work Schedule
4. Spends more time with self and family
Just seeing the notes written just this way......all I could do was shake my head. I was probably thinking .....I need to watch myself in these areas to
not miss meetings. Adjust my thinking and my heart .......which I did for the most part. But I feel like at the time it must have seemed like a normal request. Now it just seems weird to even mention it. and manipulative and controlling.
purps
