Ive been fading for about 7 months now, but I dont know if I can carry it off.
I was really upset by a family member, had a couple of drinks then phoned my sister, whoes not a JW, ( for a bit of sympathy) but then I revealed too much information about my fading. The thing is shes going on holiday with my other sister who is a JW, now im scared she might tell her. She wouldnt do it on pupose.
I feel im in quick sand, drowning, I would love to tell the way I really feel, but cant take the shunning.Will this ever end? I just want out, I just want this nightmare to stop. I feel so depressed. Will it get easier as time goes on? I just keep thinking about 24/7 I want some peace of mind
How long is a successful fade? 2years, 5 years as long as Im alive?
Im scared cos I cant keep my big mouth shut!!!!!!!!!!! Its really hard to pretend your still going to meetings and that and to listen to the crap.
Has anyone got any tips?
Sorry about the rambling I just need to talk to people who understand.