I just wanted to "announce it to.... everyone".
10 years ago today Greg married me and my two boys.
It is still hard to believe that someone loves me for me. Reasons stemming from very low self-esteem from JW days and 1 st husband days.
Greg has stood back and let me fall; put out his hand and helped me back up again and again.
He has held me while I ranted and raved about my family, my x, my sons, JW?s, feeling unworthy of love from anyone.
He has taught me to sit down and somewhat relax. (he is still working on the ?lets just do nothing? thing) it is sorta hard for me to ?do nothing?.
I am not saying he is perfect? but he is perfect for me.
My sons gave him their anniversary present last night; I told them that today was ours and that they had to stay with friends tonight. Greg told them that if they came home if would not be our fault if they walked in and we were running thru the house butt naked. They told him that they could have lived without that visual image. : )
Their anniversary present to him was:
Not from your body -
your heart gave birth.
I was your child -
you gave me worth
Not of your flesh -
no less your own.
You taught me love -
see how its grown.
I, Ryan ?, would like you, Greg ?, to know that you are my Dad regardless of my last name. Good times and bad time you have been there for me. I know I am a lot of trouble at times; but you haven?t given up on me. In my heart, in my soul, and in my mind you are my ?daddy?.
September 17, 2004 Ryan ?
I, Colin ?, would like you, Greg ?, to know that you are my Dad and whether anyone likes it or not, one way or another my last name is going to become ?.. You have loved me and hugged me and treated me as if I am part of you. I am. In my heart and in my mind and in my soul you are the person that I only think of when someone says ?Dad?. I already have your middle name; soon I will have your last.
September 17, 2004 Colin ?
This is one of those things that doesn?t really matter if there is a response. I simply want to shout it from the roof tops ?I am finally truly happy? and most of it is due to a man that simply loves me for who I am. My many faults and all.
I love you Greg.