I arrived home after work last night, my two daughters were away on a residential course, my son staying with a friend. I was preparing a meal with my four year old when the phone rang.
The call was from a ministerial servant from my old congregation. At the point of recognising his voice I began wondering why the hell I hadn't left the answerphone on! Anyway, I had already picked up and the conversation went on. I remember feeling a bit miffed as to why he would ring me as it seemed so much out of the blue. I had had no invite to the memorial yet I guess that was due to the response that was given to the last JWs that visited me.
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/58007/1.ashx
Long story short....this guy was the only member that offered any help whatsoever when my family and I were having difficulties, (and that was severely limited as he was oviously only doing what his concience dictated and not what was deemed to be ok with the JWs)! I realise during the conversation that he is one of a kind. Although we have not spoken for some time, I feel a connection and detect an emotion of concern within his voice.
He wants to come around and visit me, I agree. Two hours later he is on my doorstep.
The conversation flows from who is regularly pioneering these days to who is considered as 'bad association'. I listen with morbid interest as the demise of those that once despised my so-called success in 'the ministry' is unfolded to my apostate ears!
With great curiosity, I hear about those that caused me and my family so much pain and the circumstances that have caused them to be relgated to the ranks of being 'marked'.
In a sense I feel vindicated, (to coin a phrase) and on the other hand I wanted to yell I TOLD YOU SO! I knew those bastards that sided with my then abusive husband were totally out of order. I knew that they were wrong in giving him support. I knew that they were not willing or did they even dare to believe what was really happening, it was all to much for them to comprehend, let alone deal with!
What I am now left with is this... Why the hell did he bother to get in touch with me? What makes a person to make a move in this way? As we all know, JWs are not the type to eat humble pie, they usually always have an answer for everything, (and an excuse)!
Is there some new policy that has been put into place? Are there new instructions as to how to deal with 'fade-aways'? (Please forgive me for my paranoia, it's my indoctrination you see!)
I'd be greatful for any input or thoughts on this matter.
Yours,
Bay64me.