For a long time, I've been moving into a place of utmost hope and faith. Universal reconciliation.
As a converted JW - I began my conversion with the joy that there is a hope for something we all would love - a world where each of us sees our fellow kind as a true brother.
I don't think that's an unhealthy way to live.
But - I'm living with the effects of corruptive thinking from a 'sect' - a divisive sect and judgemental sect that has hurt my sense of self.
It's terribly painful to have completely believed one thing, and then completely believe something else.... Well that's how it feels to me.
I've read of some here who were JWs for years, then became devout born agains for years and now are confirmed atheists.
How do you cope with the frivolous nature of your 'beliefs' - beliefs that were 'truths' for you in their own time.
I'm struggling - anyone else?
The only 'truth' I want to hold is about hope and life for all of us.
But, I struggle with the shame I feel for falling into a cult. How do others cope?