Yes, for most of my life I did. I was raised as a JW, so it was all I knew. If I had no duties, I could sit, relax and listen to the indoctrination and feel as if that was the TRUTH and everything would someday be alright even outside of the KH. The last few months there as I began to realize it was all not true, I was not at peace. For a while, I thought that perhaps it would have been possible to play the JW game for the rest of my life while doing my own thing in my private life. However that would have put a lot of pressure on me. After you know that almost everything they say from the platform is crap, it gets kind of hard to sit there for 4-5 hours a week listening to it and then be expected to say things agreeing with the whole untruth.