Hi pale emporer
Your letter comes from the heart. It is really sad to think your own mother/family have nothing to do with you simply because you don't wish to be a JW. The unchristian shunning policy and other practices of the WTB&T£ is the very reason why so many are put off religion.
I would probably feel the exact same if I had been brought up and brainwashed by the society. I was practically atheist in my ways having been brought up Catholic and had all but given up on religion. The JWs helped me renew my faith in God (so I thought). That was short lived once I had woken up. Took me about 10 years and a bad experience of depression (due to this high control religion).
It was interesting you mentioned the support group you attend. How did you find such a support group? I tried to find one in my own city, but couldn't find one. It would be great to find a group to share experiences. This forum and a friend (fader) are the only places I can share my views/experiences at the moment.
All the best