Only 3 months (or so) I started reading all kinds of subjects on Quora.com. Business, engineering, science, theology.
Of course I also read questions wrt atheism; what better way than to feel superior than laughing at them stupid atheist arguments :-D
Anyway, someone posted something along the lines of:
'If a Creator must exist because complex things and beings cannot possibly come to exist by themselves, that complex Creator must also have been created. If you accept that the Creator was not created, then you should also accept that other things and being do not necessarily need a creator.'
OK I love logic, and basically Creation was the only real evidence for God's existence (Rev. 4:11 fav verse yay), so this thought hit me like a ton of bricks.
I set out to find other/better arguments to base my faith on, but I tried to find evidence that would convince me if I weren't already believing.
Does God exist?
Is the Bible God's word?
Are JW Gods people?
First I investigated the time humans appeared on earth. It's a topic I never dared look into before....cognitive dissonance is a bitch :-(
Well guess what? There is plenty evidence humans roamed the earth way before Adam was created in 4026BCE.
Also the different scientific dating methods are actually quite trustworthy.
And....Reasoning book paragraph that tries to make the reader doubt all dating of early human remains by quoting a scientist....looked up the source material and the quote is intentionally misrepresenting the scientists position.
Score so far: God 0, Bible -1, JW -1
Thanks to Quora, I was now also aware of logical fallacies and studied those, and how the scientific method really works.
Next up was finding other evidence in favour of creation, or against evilution. Being a good boy I started with the 5 question toilet pa...eh brochure. Given the honesty in Reasoning book, I tried to find source materials for all quotes. Well guess what again? Almost all quotes in that brochure are dishonest, supporting points opposite of what the scientists actually were writing, etc. And the rest is just logical fallacies. Therefore I started to investigate evolution from neutral sources. Never thought this Satanic idiot belief (evolution) would have so much evidence, fits in with everything I know is true, and is so beautiful.
Also I found it very telling that Gods spokesmen in earth cannot provide a single shred of evidence in favour of creation, and they cannot find a single reputable scientist (in a relevant field) who supports creation.
Score so far: God 0, Bible -2, JW -100
Of course life and dead decisions are not made easy, so I set out to find evidence that supports a global flood. None exists except 'all cultures have flood stories!'. But that is easily explained by all the floodings that occur all over the world (and for which there is evidence).
And there are a lot of practical problems with the story.
Score so far: God 0, Bible -3, JW -101
And during this whole process I prayed Jehovah to show me he exists please? But as I didn't want to fall for confirmation bias ('another day! Must be a sign!') I asked very specific if he would make any brother in the hall make a random remark about creation to me, in the next 4 weeks. Apparently he was either busy, doesn't care about me, or I didn't ask with enough faith.
Score so far: God -1, Bible -5, JW -101
Now when I told my wife and later some close friends all this, none them even tried to make a convincing case for God. The smartest of them told me he will write me something to convince me. I hope he will, and finds out ttatt while writing.
Here I am, a fresh deculted atheist with a dislike of the Borg. On Quora.com I write on all topics JW to spread the bright light of knowledge burning here on the 'dark side'.
If I had been a Catholic, I might still believe. But the literalist crap JW are claiming is easy to disprove with loads of evidence. And given my JW background all theology collapses when creation story is just an allegory. If that is not to be understood literal, then what in the Bible is?
Now I'm being voluntarily shunned by my wife's sister and her elder hubby (I'm not df'ed, I don't give them that chance :-) and having a hard time with my still-in wife.
However, as the wise man Jesus of Nazareth (supposedly) said: 'The truth will set you free.'
It really does. In my head I'm free, and the Borg have no authority over me at all.
PS. Basically my story is like Daniel Genser's, except for my wife not leaving with me...