I am going away. No instant messenger, no emails, nothing.
Why? Well... it is complicated. The entire time I was married I went to a friends house one time. I was 5 minutes late, and as a result I was humilated, tossed in an ice cold shower, screamed at, and otherwise for hours because of this. So I dropped every single friend I had right there, just like that. Then in 2001 I found the internet. Life has changed since then. I am no longer an inactive dub, no longer married to the biggest mistake I ever made. Talk about stupid. I am telling you this for god knows what reason, I suppose because it is the past, and it can't hurt me anymore.
The internet was a wonderful tool, but it is time I unplug from this place now. Sorry, gonna touch a nerve here, but too many creepy insane people here. lol Hey, I was always blunt with my feelings, no wasn't I?
Simon, thanks. Your board has been a wonderful healing point.
MSIL/Gravedancer/Donkey - You were the first human being to ever show me unselfish kindness and not turn around and bite me, do you realize that? You helped me when you had nothing to gain, and as a result, you changed me. I know it sounds dumb, but it meant a lot. I won't ever forget you. Maybe someday we will get to meet, it's a small world, after all...
Everybody I care about - thanks for watching me heal and tolerating me. I care about many of you.
Wierdos - Its is ok, I'm wierd too. The moment I get off the internet, I will only be half wierd tho, and you will be fully wierd. Does this make sense? No, then again, I am wierd.
My life up until this point has been total and absolute shit, and to be frank, I am sick of it. So, I decided I am going to be happy from now on. I have everything to be happy for damn it.
Amanda