I Ended my Bible Study

by Maria Nieves 27 Replies latest watchtower beliefs

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  Maria Nieves

  I ended my bible study today. Several months ago, I began to feel that the truth was not the truth. As the months progressed, my feelings intensified. I wanted to end the study but did not know how.

  Somehow, I ended the bible study today. During the study, I felt that my bible study conductor was criticizing other religions and that she was drilling into me that the Jehovah Witness religion was the true religion. I was also being questioned as to whether I believed the Jehovah Witness religion to be the one true religion.

  I told my bible study conductor that the purpose of a study was to progress to baptism and that I was not progressing.

  Although the ending of the study needed to be done, I do feel guilt and sadness. Ending the study was not easy to do and I felt like crying. I also feel a little lost and wonder how I can move forward. I dedicated more than two years of my life to studying, going to the weekend meetings, going to the weekday meetings, going to the assemblies and conventions.

  I know that Jehovah Witnesses are not supposed to have friends who are not witnesses. However, I viewed my bible study conductor as a friend, I confided in her and I trusted her.

  I do want to have a relationship with God and I want to grow closer to him. However, I still feel that the truth is not the truth.
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  WTWizard

  First, do they even follow their own bible? What happens when they get judgmental? Remember, it says in their own bible that one should not judge lest they receive heavier judgment for themselves, and that they should mind their own business. So, is that "minding your own business" when they send someone to look through your whole music collection or make you show them your whole music library on iTunes or Amazon Prime? Or, if they keep insisting that you wear a certain style of clothing (such as a white dress shirt)? So long as they profess to abide by the bible, they are bound to it.

  Next, see if the whole bible isn't simply a curse. Notice how much fear they use in that whole book, and for petty incidents. Is it worth slaughtering many people because one person took items from already dead people (after an invasion) instead of destroying said items? (And why are they invading people that are minding their own business in the first place?) Notice how much the bible makes a big deal out of fornication, adultery, idolatry, hating your enemies (who already hate you), and just wanting something that you don't "need". How petty was joke-hova with Saul, who had to save his nation when Samuel was stalling and waiting for Saul to act, only to show up a staged 5 minutes after? And, Tyrant David--that ark sin was quite petty (that thing should have been punished for slaughtering innocent nations for nothing but minding their own business, not for steadying the ark).

  And, why is the bible based around Israel? What was so special about that area that they didn't have, say in Japan? Nothing, aside from the energy lines in that area that allow them to rule the whole world. Yet, one cannot read that book without realizing that Israel is treated as the capital of the world therein, to rule the whole world (just try reading Revelation if you don't believe that--that is what the whole book of Revelation is about). Is it even worth reading a book that is nothing more than a curse on mankind?
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  ShirleyW

  Smart move Maria !

  The study will be out of your mind in no time, glad you noticed it was a cult, not associating with others that don't belong, does that sound like something a loving God would do, of course not !!

  Forget them and get on with your life and if they contact you again (and they probably will) to see why you stopped or if you want to start up again say NO !! and please don't bother you again !!
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  john.prestor

  You made the right decision, and making the right decision is always hard. If this person cuts you off and stops talking to you or spending time with you, they weren't your friend to begin with. And if they weren't your friend to begin with, you shouldn't care what they think of you.
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  nicolaou

  I wish that fifty years ago my Mum had done what you just did today, would've saved a load of heartache for our family.

  Well done Maria, don't feel too bad for your 'friend', this is the life she's chosen . . for now
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  Wasanelder Once

  That's how it works, make friends with you and lull you into a false sense of being needed, loved and wanted. You buckle to make someone happy by being baptized and "Bam"! you're kicked out when you use your brain at last. They are NOT your friend. Its conditional and you fail the condition of believing their BS.
  
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  smiddy3

  Ask yourself Maria why is the God of the "Old Testament " such a blood thirsty war mongering God who by his own actions was responsible for millions of deaths of man woman and child in most cases simply because they were in the way of Israel`s expansion program.?

  ( In contrast Satan is only credited to being responsible for about 10 deaths in that period.)

  As opposed to the God of the New Testament "who loved the world so much he gave his only begotten son " who preached "turn the other cheek" "forgive your brother not 7 times but 77 times " " do not judge one another "

  and so on.

  The bible says God doesn`t change ,if your study wants you to resume your study again ask her to answer those questions and don`t let her get away with deflecting the question ,pin her down on it.
  
  
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  The Fall Guy

  Hi Maria, you have probably just made the biggest and best decision of your life. Many here will envy your fast escape.

  You have saved yourself a lifetime of devoting your obedience, time, and money to a cult which is anti-scriptural in its teachings and its name, and anti-Christ in its only religious ceremony - the memorial.

  Go and enjoy your freedom! (you have a PM)
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  jookbeard

  you wont regret it,smart move
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  Vanderhoven7

  Congratulations for having the courage to end the study despite the negative feelings it engenders. What matters is that you made the right decision for yourself and family. I am also glad that you have not thrown the baby out with the bath-water and have not given up wanting to be right with God and His son Jesus.