Justa;
I want to worship God, but how do I do it now.
Look into deism http://www.religioustolerance.org/deism.htm . Many people feel a need for god in their lives, but realise over time that all relgious books, for all the wonderful things they say, are not infallible god inspired things but the work of well intentioned people, and that the same applies to religion.
The difference between a belief in god and religion is like the difference between a prime steak barbequed at home and a McDonalds. One is quick and easy, but no one will argue about what is better for you AND tastes better.
I have not stopped studying and I need some advise on how to quit. They are always so nice when they come by.
Look here; http://search.yahoo.com/bin/search?p=love+bombing&ei=UTF-8
Those nice people are just doing what they are told to, out of the best intentions. They're nice because they want you to become one of them. See how nice they are if you say to them that you feel the JW's are very hypocritical over the sex abuse cover-ups. All you have to do is say NO. Think of yourself and your child, not some strangers come to sell you something, no matter how nice thet are.
When I first told my daughter that we would no longer celebrate birthdays she cried I felt bad but wanted to make Jehovah happy.
Well, I think you and your daugher are going to have the best damn birthday she ever had; if you missed it, have it NOW. Do you seriously think the sovreign lord of the Universe would kill people for celebrating birthdays, or children if their parents celebrated their birthdays? Seems kind of petty to me AND IT IS NOT IN THE BIBLE. The WItnesses use 'logic', like the 'logic' they use to outlaw birthdays in the same way that the Pharasees did to make laws to impose on people that DO NOT come from god.
Also I was afraid that the world was gonna end and the only people that would be their or be saved were the witnesses when I know that I have met some GOOD people.
Of course you were afraid the world was going to end, that's what they were trying to convince you. Fear is a great motivating factor. But again, the JW's have been using the fear of the world end, just like loads of other religions, for thousands of years. And it has not ended once, despite many prophecies. The JW's used to imply the world would end before someone who was born in 1914 would die (the generation that saw the signs Jesus spoke of), but keep changing the definition of 'generation'. BY THEIR OWN DEFINITON they are false prohpets.
Point is I dont know where to turn now.
See the link above regarding deisim; note, I am not a deist (except on days when I am feeling very fluffy), I am an athiest, so this link is just food for though, not what I think you should think. What ever you do, do not expect the answers to come to you in fortnightly magazines!
The more I think about it the more I feel angry. Please help advise, experiences would all be helpful.
Use the anger to make sure those people will not bother you again; they are trained to sow doubt and fear in you if you show any uncertainty, and although they don't know it use quite powerful methods of manipulatiing people. Blow them out of your life, get your breath back, and then use the Internet to find out about Science, God, the Bible, Religions, go to your local library - be cautious of anyone trying to sell you their beliefs, as no matter how well intentioned they are, they might be wrong.... and you can now see how easy it is to be persuaded that something that is wrong is THE truth.
All the best to you.
