I have hope I am going to win the lottery when I but a ticket maybe once or twice a month ,do I build my whole life around this Hope ? No of course not because I also know that the probability of winning is astronomically against my doing so.
In other words I don`t lead my life around the assumption I will win the lottery.
The hope JW`s have about resurrection ,paradise earth ,living forever ,either in heaven or on earth are all "pie in the sky" false hopes invented by charlatans posing as Bible Scholars.
I can only speak for myself and I would never want to delude myself with a false hope.
The record of Jehovah`s Witnesses speaks for itself ,it`s foundation is built on what has proved to be false hope.
I`m sorry your experiencing this loss sinboi ,death is just a part of living in the real world ,the older you get the more people die around you ,it`s just a fact of life.
I`m sorry if I sound cynical but I don`t believe in lying to myself.
While you have life live it to the full because you never know what`s around the corner.