I was born in four gen, been D.F.d. for about eight years now. My father had always been a true company man, although more times than I can count, he's always been floppy. Like we never really had a family study on a consistent basis. That little thing annoyed the hell out of me. Doesn't really matter, but when we did have a family study it was always after a circuit assembly, or district convention when he was at his most self-righteous.
So, yesterday I stopped by parent's place because I hadn't seen their car in a few days. I called my mother and found out that my dad was in an accident and on top of that, my mom was in the hospital and no one bothered to tell me. Up until yesterday when I saw him sitting at the carts or wherever, I would stop and we'd talk. Nothing deep, and when I left I'd always say love you and leave. Today, I stop by to check up on him, and when I walked into his study room, he had one of the Org's pod casts on and I just knew what kind of reaction I was going to get. I smiled and said, "I was just checking up on you." To which he replied, "Why?"
"Because you're old and I care," I said.
"No need," he said and went on to tell me that the times I've had contact with him and mother is tearing her apart.
At that point I shook my head and walked out all the while he's telling me that he'll call me when something comes up.
I said, "Call me when he or my mother is in the hospital or dead." I'm done. I really love my family and friends that I left behind, but I just cannot stomach the self-righteousness. I can deal with the flip flops, and the whole 700 Clubifiying remake, but as far as the self-righteousness, can't do it. I've never been that way. I've always hated those who were that way and it appears that the more this fucking group evolves the more arrogant and self-righteous they get. I was so heated and hateful towards this fucking religion that I've pretty much resolved to never go back and therefore never talk to or see my parent's again.