How many of you have hurt the ones you love by exposing them to the "Truth"?
I was the one who was a dub, I got SheilaM to "convert". I caused her a lot of pain and stole a big part of her life for it. I can't give her that time back. I wish I could. My "religion" dictated my attitudes and actions toward her. I made no plans for our retirement. Had no ambition to make something of myself. I wasted too much time. I wrote this for her.
I confront the mid point of my life with anxious bewilderment
Half of what I have lived was a nightmare, half a fairy tale
Why did I hurt the one I love while bending over backwards for the abusers?
Foolishness is tied up in the heart of a boy says the Good Book
Why did it take so long for me to become a man?
So deserving of my adoration is this woman I call wife
She has a heart of gold a poets soul
Sheila Madonia the love of my life
I feel giddy when I hear her say it, or read her name in print
This woman with my last name, taken, given
I am smitten with her since the first time our eyes met
I can’t imagine a life without her
Too long she wondered
Does he love me? Does he care? Am I the only one?
I thought she knew cause I was always there
I would tell her , I did, I did, You were
Stupid, stupid boy Oh I was that
No more, my eyes are wide open now
I see and recognize things I had missed before
Her need to hear and see and feel my affections continuously
Machismo be damned the girl needs love I’ll give it ever more
So much time gone by So much time to make up for
Ready, willing, wanting, hoping, praying, to do it right this time
Tough times I’ve seen some, been there, done that
My spirit was broken, she was all that kept me here
She held me together, now its my turn
She made me whole again, I will do as much for her
You can’t imagine how empty the hours are without Sheila
I wasted so much time depressed and bitter
I pledge now to live every day as if it were my last with her
I promise her joy unbounded love unrivaled and total
There is sunshine in the future and sunsets to be shared
I’ll never let a day go by her not knowing that I cared
How one can love this way, I’m sure that it is rare
When a heart is lost in Carmel eyes and flowing auburn hair
Take notice all you onlookers and would be hangers on
I love this little girl, I live this little girl, I want this little girl
Time is a funny thing, it can be cruel or kind
I will make a friend of time I’ve set this in my mind
I figure I can offer her 60 golden years
Wet eyes only from happiness and never sorrows tears
Time wasted never again a course is set for happiness
From that course I will not veer
My heart and soul pledges all my love to Sheila
If she would only hold me in her arms and kiss away my fear
Don't let your life pass you by waiting on lies. That person right there beside you deserves all of you.