Every now and again I would miss meetings due to health, surgeries, work etc.
When I would miss a meeting here and there I didn't particularly feel this "weirdness."
It wasn't until I would miss 3 or more consecutive meetings that I felt this weirdness upon entering the KH.
I can't really explain it but it feels like I was entering the KH for the first time. It's not like when you take a 2 week vacation and come back to work. No. It's a different kind of feeling. It's sorta like stepping out into the sunlight after being indoors for 2 weeks and not seeing the sun. Something like that.
I theorize it's the hypnotic state I was subjected to that always felt good while I "was under." There's the spiritual aspect I also feel had a lot to do with it.