1987 Attended the memorial for the first time, and the last time? 2016
It was a big step for me to not go last night I'm convincing myself that I really do have the strength to never return to this living nightmare of a religion. You may recall I'm a fader my last meeting was 9 months ago and I have deflected a number of attempted visits and dozens of phone calls they now just hang up on my answering machine, as a matter of fact they did it again this morning. I was hoping they would start to get tired of the chase because I'm brother "Nobody" no wife, no kids no living parents and the family hardcore Jdubs live out of state where they are currently living happily ever after. On a much more upbeat note the only other witness in the family may be waking up. We had a long chat where I told him about some of the insane abuse I've received over the years ( I would love to tell you more about that but as a fader I'm being careful about giving out to many details)...The good news is that he's getting tired of all the bullcrap too and to my surprise had himself removed as a MS recently (we go to different congs) He made it clear that my true feelings and what I said are between us. I was very careful to not say anything "apostate" just telling him about all the heartless crap that's been done to me for decades was enough for a start . And I do recall the good advice I have read from all of you and our YouTube friends to be careful, move slow and don't force anything because its my goal to never return... He will chose his own path.
Thanks to all of you for being here I don't comment much but I do read your posts every week and truly want all of you to find strength, peace and happiness.