I was thinking of this the other day,,,,,,, feeling guilty of putting my kids thru this, even thou it was not my intention at all,,,,,,,all the meetings, all the service , ,, fear was the motivating factor in doing all of the things JW's do every week.
Five meetings a week JW children are subjected to hearing in graphic detail of how the birds will eat the eyeballs out of those who die in Armeggedon. Then they are told they better keep on the cramped and narrow path or they will end up the same.
Then they hear all the things God did in the past for those who didnt do what he said,,,,,,,terrified they will be his next victims. My son is 16 and he tells me how he felt. I was shocked that he was that afraid . Being raised JW myself I understood too well what he meant but being a faithful JW , I didnt see it that way until I myself got out from under the JW mind control .
My own father, used this fear factor on me ,,,,,,, not only in pleasing God , but I had to be totally perfect, obeidant to him or it was if I was hurting God too.
Every punishment was supposed to be an act of love by my father, and he had the Bible and the WT publications to back him up on it.
I was afraid of him so much. ANd to this day I still fear Armeggedon even when my logic tells me otherwise.
I guess being raised this way as a child , I have along way to go to get rid of the fear that invades my thoughts , my dreams and even my subconscience. I am so afraid of things, I don't know how to deal with the fact that some things may happen that are out of my control. I still feel I have to do things a certain way or something bad will happen and it will be my fault. I would to love one day not fear anymore....... but I have only been really out of JW a year and I am still trying to cut the emotional ties that still bind me to them. I stilll fear I might be wrong...... no matter how much I read they lie about, the child abuse,,,,,,,, I still wonder if God is the way I was taught and that I will be destoryed by him. I am not even afraid to not have life,,,,,,,, or the pain of dying, but I do fear displeasing God, even being angry at Him,,,,,,, makes me feel guilty and scared.
I really think that all cults ,,,, use this fear factor to control the children and the children grow up to be adults who are always afraid,,,,,,,not learning how to trust anyone or even themselves.