This is my introduction. I was baptized July 9, 1965 in San Diego, California. I submitted my letter of Disassociation in July, 2002. 37 years of my life devoted to a carefully contrived lie. I gave three of my children to the lie (baptized in the lie). One is currently studying the lie. One obsesses that she is not good enough for the lie. Three others never completely bought the lie. I am so thankful that my children were not taken away by the lie. The ones that are baptized are no longer attending meetings. The one that is studying goes to some meetings. The PO is the one studying with her.
My journey out began with Dateline which led to Silentlambs. Someone mentioned the UN scandal and I asked a question which quickly was answered. Things snowballed from there. I presented all of the information I had gathered to my eight children. They had different reactions which was to be expected. The three baptized ones stopped going to meetings at the same time I did. The PO and my BSC came to the house because I wrote a letter of protest to the GB. They wanted my family to leave the room while they talked with me. I dismissed the unbaptized daughter and granddaughter but my baptized son and daughter stayed. I said to the PO, "If I had a husband you would not dare to come to my house and insist that he leave the room while you spoke to me. Since I do not have a husband I choose my son as a substitute spiritual head. He will stay. Since I would try to repeat everything said later to my daughter, she will stay so that nothing is misquoted later." That meeting lasted 2-1/2 hours. I agreed to not spred it throughout the congregation.
The next meeting, which was also at my house because I refused to go to the KH, was about one hour. That time only my son was there. It was called because a sister, who claimed to be my dear friend, had seen my letter to the editor of Newsweek. They were upset because I had not remained quiet enough to suit them. I was asked the all important question, "Do you believe that the Watchtower is God and the GB will rule the universe as his representative?" I hadnt gotten that far into my research yet so I was able to dance around the answer.
I wrote a letter to an old friend who had moved far away. We had reconnected and she wanted to know what had gone on in my life since we were extra close sisters. Well, by that time my research into the ugly rotten inner workings of the Watchtower Bilge and Trash Society was going full swing. Of course I was sure that my good friend and sister would want to know the Truth. Not!!! I got another visit from the two inquisitors. I cut the meeting short. They did not even open or close with prayer.
I knew that my time was short so I composed a letter of Disassociation. I sent a copy to the GB, the body of elders of my KH and to the few friends I would miss most by leaving. I got a call from the PO, he said that brother BSC was on three way, I was told that the announcement would be made the next service meeting. End of 37 years. What a roller coaster ride!
So now I am here, alive and well and never happier.