I don't think any of this is really all that unusual so I'm sorry if you find it dull. I was raised in the JW cult from birth, a third generation member to boot. My family was full of elders, ministerial servants and overseers of all sorts. I never felt comfortable in the organization though. I had so many questions that were never answered or were just brushed off with simplistic replies:"Jehovah knows". I also received overzealous corporal punishment on a regular basis. Small things such as voicing my displeasure at my mothers choice of a meal received punches and worse. As unhappy and withdrawn as I was I still strived very hard to be a good Witness. I eventually got baptized and started to pioneer. When I was almost 19 I met a "worldly" guy who I decided immediatly that I liked. I snuck out of my parents house to go on a date with him. The date turned out badly because he took my back to his house and raped me. I won't go into details but it was a very bad experience and destroyed any faith I had in a god. I immediatly stopped pioneering and went on a wild rampage for about 3 years. Noone ever asked my "why" I was acting this way they just tried over and over to get me to go to meetings and study. Then when I was 22 I had a child. Surprise surprise guess who I found myself sitting in front of. That's right a judicial committee! These morbid old men wanted to know every sordid detail of what I had been up to even though I had hardly attended a meeting in 3 years. No offers of sympathy or support of course. I was publicly reproved and everyone knew why. I stopped caring at that point and haven't been back in the 6 years since. My family still tries to get me to go but it's no use because I've had my blinders removed through what I have seen and read. The only thing I can do now is help get my younger siblings out and offer them support. So far that hasn't been a problem and I think that even my mother wants to leave.
I have to remain somewhat anonymous because I still have some family members who attend but I hope that some of this helps all of you to understand my point of view. Thanks for listening!
~Aztec