Everytime I get mad over something, all my feelings just come out. Today, I had a really bad day. (If you read my last post, you know what I am talking about.) Here is the thing. I have been here in the city of Las Vegas for two months, and in all that time I have not made a single friend. Recently, there was going to be an exJW meeting here in Las Vegas, but it was cancelled because not enough people signed up. Great!
Every time I talk to people I just feel stupid. I feel that this person probably doesn't like me and that this is just a waste of time. I know that this can't always be true, but I just can't read people! I can be very paranoid over something completely insignificant and the other hand I can do or say the most offensive thing and not have any idea that I have done something wrong! That is what I am missing. I don't know how to get people to like you or where to even meet people. When you meet someone: How do you talk to them? How do you know that this person doesn't want to have anything to do with you? I see all these people walking around with their husbands, wives, girlfriends, boyfriends, friends, and I am always alone. I just think: "I wish that was me." I just don't get it! Come on everyone, what is the secret? What does everyone know that I don't!