Hi again Outoftheorg,
If you have apologized, asked for his forgiveness and hugged him then that is all you can do! I understand completely the confusion/anger and taking it out on someone else. We have probably all done it. I hope that he is able to atleast forgive you? Unfortunately, you cannot erase his past or the effect it has had on him. So sorry for that. There are consequenses that we suffer as a result of the borg as you well know. They've caused pain in ourselves and our families and friends. I think it would be sooo beneficial for you to atleast forgive yourself! You did the best you could at that time! Have you ever spoken to your son the way you have spoken here. My God, I think he'd be moved to tears. Healing tears! Maybe regret, can go to our graves with us but you can find relief for the grief and shame. I mean, I am not your child but I was raised in the wt and I only got out 7 years ago. I am 41 now. My family is still in it. I would forgive my parents in a heartbeat for the mental and physical abuse they put us children thru......if they'd only see it that way. For crying out loud....you have learned from your mistake! I'd be proud to have a dad like you! luv, dj