Introspection, sorry I missed your point. It sounds complicated.
Not really Pat, I may not be too clear but thats just me not being clear - perhaps the word you're looking for is confusing, and you can rightly point to me as the source of the confusion as I usually don't give much thought to organizing my thoughts.
Basically what I mean is this: I'm not going to throw out everything that's remotely associated with the witnesses just because they happen to do it, like wearing certain clothes or whatever. If you're reactive toward clothes (apparently we're talking about that, I have to admit I only read your reply to me) or something that's obviously neutral just because it was part of the whole experience, then you are not free from that are you? To me that's just the other side of the coin, and that doesn't mean true change has taken place. I'll even cite certain points from the bible at times. Most people will agree that there are atleast a few good ideas in there, but they shy away from those probably due to emotional reasons. I'm not going do that just to identify myself in some way, an ex-witness, an ex-christian, an ex-religious person or whatever, it's just more identity based on the original one, and I'm not really big on any kind of identity these days.
Of course that's fine too, if you want to have some kind of identity. But instead of avoiding those things, I say reclaim it. Why should having been a witness limit my clothing options, or my option in anything else for that matter? To me real change is not in appearances, whether they be physical or mental. To me, real freedom means everything is fair game, absolutely everything - if I'm really engaged in communicating with someone I'll go wherever they're willing to go, intellectually or physically, even wear their type of clothes or whatever. (along with anything else of course) But since I now know I'm not any of those things, (physical things, thoughts, emotions in general - let alone those peculiar to the witnesses) none of those things are going to change me.
I'll go a little farther, being completely free not only means I'm out of the organization, (which in my book means very little, that's just their little bit of book keeping) but free from any effect it has ever had on me. You might say this sounds outrageous, because you have cause and effect and so on, but I don't mean that it hasn't had any effect on me, I am simply free from it. It just so happens I don't have too many JW thoughts and such that enter my head, but even if such effects are still present I can be free from it. It's sort of like the Trix cereal commercial - "Silly Witness, cults are for kids." In other words, you don't have to believe your habitual thoughts or buy into any of your conditioning.
To any witness that may happen to be reading this, I ask you to simply consider one thing from the bible - the scripture where it says you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. Do you really feel you are free?
*edited to correct spelling
Edited by - Introspection on 10 September 2002 1:27:20