It used to bother me that there was no understanding of slowing down during the busy times of one's life. One year, I was extremely busy with family responsibilities. My elderly mom had surgery and needed care upon returning home, one of my children had sustained injuries from a car accident. And to top it all off, I found out I was pregnant at 40.
My days were filled with Dr. appointments and caring for my mom and child as well as the normal day to day things. At night time, I was exhausted. I cut my meeting attendance way back, some weeks not going at all. I cut my field service back too, I had neither the time nor desire to find bible studies. My plate was full.
My reasoning was this: only I could take care of my unborn child and myself during this pregnancy. It was my responsibility to care for my aging parent and child. There are other people that could place magazines, start Bible studies. I could resume those things once my personal life had less problems in it.
Of course, I was looked upon as being weak for not being able to balance it all and nobody came over to help me, because I wasn't spiritual enough. I was approached about being irregular, asked if there wasn't some way I could be doing more. It was a very low and depressing time for me but I tried to put their words out of my mind and just concentrated on the things I could do and commended myself.
It wasn't the final straw, but it helped me to start seeing what this organization truly was. Things did work out for the best.