First of all, thanks to all the advices you sent me about having an affair with a married man. I know that isn't a good option, but I needed to hear it from others too.
I wanted to tell you that some months ago, a Jehovas Witness' cousin sent me an email. He didn't know me, but he told me he heard a lot of his aunt, how sweet I'm. I didn't know that he was jw too, so I answered him, and told him it was cool that he wrote me. But suddenly he told me he got babtized some months ago and that before that he didn't think to became jw, he had long hair, etc. I answered that I'm out of the org and he answered that he knew that and thought it was a pity, because I'm nice, as he heard. He told me that maybe, like him before his baptism, I've my heart sleeping in the spiritual sence, but anyway he didn't want to boring me with this kind of advices. So we email each other for a couple of months. He asked me if I would return to the org, and I answered that I didn't know (at that time I felt guilty until I read the Crisis book of R. Franz, with what I decided to not go back, actually I'm near to of one year out of the org). He asked me also if I had a boyfriend. I hadn't (and still have not). He asked me if my heart was beating... I told him yes (thinking about the married guy I like, but obviusly didn't mention). Suddenly he stopped writing me.
Two weeks ago I got an email form him again. He told me he's going to a marriage party in the city where I live (he lives 10 hours from here). He said "see you". That will be this 10. August. I just answered "Enjoy it" and nothing else. He wasn't direct, but obviously he wanted to meet me. But you know I was trying to protect my heart of being hurt. I just left the org, not because I broke one of the Organization "law", and my friends stopped to call me. That hurt me. So I thought maybe he gonna make the same thing if I tell him I won't go back. But you know, so many years in the org (11) being 28 years old and withouth boyfriend and have a chance to know someone who wrote me... in fact I liked him when I saw the picture... :) and also to have the oportunity to forget a little the married guy... So I wrote him and tell him he could call me or see me if he wants. I'm waiting for his email, if he writes me.
I really find it's strange that he wrote me and asked me about my heart and told me that that specific day will be visiting my city. I noticed that he's the kind of jw that isn't so strict, more natural. All his family is jw, so maybe that is a pressure for him to be one of them... I don't know.
What do you recomend me?
I gonna tell you what happen :)