When it finally clicked,............
. . . . . it was a rude awakening. I truly had believed all the BS. I thought my family, my parents, my grandparents, etc would all make it (somehow by God's HS) through the GT and live forever in Paradise. It was real.....in my mind's eye.
My grandparents I thought were just too old and/or in too poor of health to make it "through" but we'd welcome them back on the "other side". After all, Grandma died refusing blood after surgery. She'd taken her stand for Jehovah. They were born in the late 1800's, so not necessarily included in "the generation". Then my dad died. All those years smoking while out of The Truth(tm). And now, when I finally wake up to TTATT, my wife & I are already old and seeing the effects of it -- health declining, etc.
All those hours, days, weeks, YEARS spent wasting our time knocking on doors, preparing & going to worthless meetings, assemblies, conventions, etc etc etc. F&cking YEARS wasted on the hampster wheel, trying to go faster.
ALL FOR NAUGHT! WASTED THE BEST YEARS OF OUR LIVES.
There was a period of sadness over the loss, but mostly I've been ANGRY. Angry at me for being so gullible and stupid and blind. And extremely resentful and angry at the men who concocted and promoted the horrible scam. They are WICKED.
Did it take weeks to
recover, or months, or years, or are you still recovering and see no end in
I don't think I've recovered yet. I don't know if I (or anyone) really can. You simply cannot go back and regain what has been taken away. I've wondered if counseling/therapy would help, although I doubt that most counselors would even be able to understand the feelings and thus doubtful they could help. It would really take someone with an expertize in Cults.
As a friend here frequently reminds us: It is a Cult.