Aww cheers guys x
Thankfully (after 7yesrs of study) I am LOVING the job and feel like I am doing the right thing, at the right time. at the right place, at the right moment in my life.
Never have the governing body and their oppressive regime seemed so surreal and disant. A reign of tyranny through fear and emotional blackmail. Again, the further you get away from it, the more amazing it is that we were one of the very few people on esrth to fall for such utter nonsense, whether indoctrinated as a child or not. It is quite embarassing.
As for the medicine, it is fulfilling the very desires that appealed to me withinn the JW's, only it is REAL. I do get to make a difference, I am offering hope and I have prolonged life and prevented death. I don't wield this responsibility with arrogance or demanding exclusive devotion. It is an honour and a privilege. Autonomy, capacity and respect rules supreme.
My very first week, on my first dsy having replaced the doctor I took over from, I had an emergency call......I opened the curtain to find an obvious anaphylaxis. The responsibility landed in my psyche in an instant.....this is life threatening with minutes to treat her and prevent a horrible incident. There was nobody around i.e. no seniors. I was informed as I arrived that they couldn't get access to the patients veins, essential for the life saving drugs. Anaphylaxis is what every new doctor dreads and I literally got it on day one. The patient had been stung by a wasp, they had diffuse blistered red skin, limbs swollen by a good 40%, airway swollen and a room full of nervous family and nurses. Inside.....I was petrified.
i have been on this board from day one of my medical training spanning nearly a decade. From the early days of amazement at how easy it was to question science, question authority, the irony that it was encouraged. Such a polar opposite tothe stance of the self sppointed men that dictated my youth. It is quite a bizzare experience to become the valued asset, the authority in a room, to have an opinion that matters, to be a source of information and even life saving skills......having been raised a JW automotom under the influence of 8 men in Brooklyn, men I wouldnt know if we were swuished together in an elevator.
I got access, I got the life saving drugs in and watched a deteriorating patient get well before my eyes........a moment I will remember forever.
All that hard work, 7 years struggling, losing my JW identity and support, right then, It was all so worth it...... two months on and several life saving incidients later I am fully aware how fortunate a man I now am.
Leave Watchtower and live........ really live.....
Dr Snare x