It's about a year since I started visiting this website. It all started with the July 15 WT last year and all the changes. Lazy me had not read it online so when one bro said to me at the hall, 'have you read all the new stuff in that issue' I didn't know what he was talking about. Then we had the re-emphasis on the 'overlapping generation' and various other things like the seven shepherds and eight dukes madness. The willingness to obey even if you don't understand/agree with what is going on. And coming up the week after next in the wt study is this gem :'If we are to have Jehovah's favor and blessing as individuals, we must support his organization and accept adjustments in our understanding of the Scriptures.' This is followed by a weird equating of Jewish Christians who had been under the Law and who might have found it hard to break free realizing through Paul's letter to the Hebrews that they had to adjust their understanding, to us being willing to follow all the crazy changes we are making now. Gimme strength.
I've always thought of myself as a fairly loyal person. I've been a witness for a long time. My wife is a witness. All my close friends and a lot of close family members by marriage. I've gone through a phase up to recently where I thought I would crack mentally under this pressure. Now things have calmed down a bit and I am trying to make room for all the contradictions. For the moment, anyway. Doesn't help that I conduct the Wt study and am pretty involved. Not self-pitying, really, but just trying to work it out.