R and me, part 2

by Pistoff 12 Replies latest jw experiences

  • life is to short
    life is to short

    Thank you for your memories. It brought back a lot of feelings for me also. Sometimes thinking of the past and how I felt about the older ones as a young person looking up to them, putting so much trust in them that it makes my heart hurt so much now for what could have been and should have been. All the pain and hurtfulness and yet good time mixed into it all. It's hard for me to make sense of it all now.

    I agree that sending a card would be a kind way to go.


  • Xanthippe

    Pistoff thanks for you two accounts, I really enjoyed reading them. Sorry for the loss of your mentor's son.

    I can't tell him that all will be well, that soon the new world will be here and he will see his son again, though it crosses my mind that maybe I should.

    It just struck me that now we are not in the cult we can't say things like this when people lose loved ones because what they believe is very personal and no-one would presume to say such a thing at a funeral the way JWs do.

    It's really sad that these old 'oak trees' are lost to you. I don't know what to say. I lost everyone I knew my whole life too. It's not normal is it?

  • Pistoff

    @Missfit: I will follow up after I send a card or talk to him; there are some other interesting developments I just hear about.

    @LITS: I was suprised at the strong feelings I had too, LITS; it reminded me again that the doctrine and org are fake, I feel, but the people and relationships are real

    @xanthippe: I can't explain the feelings of loss; I don't share their worldview anymore, but I guess the memories are deeply ingrained in me.

    It was such a simple time; we were the small nucleus of the soon to be empty big world, facing an apocalypse together.

    Thanks all!

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