This is a very lonely time of year for me I admit it. I'm suppose to be going over my aunties house Wednesday after work. But going to Christmas/Holiday parties and get togethers, I still kinda feel out of place.
I really wish I grew up celebrating the holidays more. I got influcenced by it but never celebrated it. I left the kingdom hall back in 2010, and mentally I still am not a very 'fesitive' person . Not only did my parents not celebrate the holidays growing up, but then I had a grandfather who did allow his daughters to celebrate it (my grandparents were not J-dubs). But as far as I knew, he didnt believe in holidays and he thought work was more important than celebrating the holidays. Besides the holidays I have a birthday coming up on Feb 16th, I'll be 31.
I am free to celebrate the holidays now, but the holidays, not just Christmas, Thanksgiving, and New Years, but all of them, seem so forced and commericalized, captialized, etc. It just seems so....fake. If I have kids (which I dont) I dont care if they want to celebrate or dont. This lady that came to my job (I work at a hotel ) was telling me that its too expensive, especially Chistmas. She said that kids are very ungreatful nowadays. I still have mixed feelings.
My parents are so anti Holiday, anti Birthday that its hilarious. I dont care either way, and I never understood what was the big deal growing up. I mean if a person gives me a gift, I'll appreciate it. A lot of people did give me cards and gifts for my graduation from high school, and I deeply appreciated it. Buuuuut the J-Dubs in my congo and circuit were so hypocritical growing up when it came to graduation parties and bridal showers, wedding anniversaries, etc. OMG, I couldnt believe how they could flip the scriptures around to go in the directions that they wanted it to go. It made me sick to the stomach.
How do you guys feel?