Being disfellowshipped was the worse and also the best thing that ever happened to me. It showed me how cruel, cold, insensitive, ignorant, narrow minded, how NOT appointed by any Holy Spirit what so ever any of them are.
But I could net see any of this clearly until I actually went back and got reinstated. By which time I had so much more experience with human behaviour, nature and psychology. I could see them for what they really were. Deceptive and dangerous liars, frauds and fakes.