MavMan - have you read Crisis of Conscience yet?
Even though I don't agree with your beliefs any longer, I can relate to them. But I think it's important to keep an open mind - I know that you've read the "Organized" book (as did I and most other JW's), but you should also read "Crisis of Conscience".
You may not agree with what Mr. Franz has to say - but I have found it helpful to hear both sides of a story, then make my decision.
At the very least, you will be in a position to defend your faith if someone at the door asks you about the contents of one of these books.
(1 Peter 3:15 Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,...)