Just wanted to say hi. I was there once. I understand how you may feel.
I remember lurking here years ago cause I didn't want to tell the elders on myself and have a judicial committee if I could figure a way out of it. I came on here, was very careful on what I'd allow myself to read, talked to somebody on here who was currently an elder and thought to myself, "Well, I could have been in his hall and he is technically an elder and forgave me. Soooo, it's out of my hands now and is the elders fault if he's wrong." I could finally let it go...
When I came back as Cognac I didn't even realize this was the site I was on that time. It finally dawned on me when I went on an old email address I had.
ANYWHO, just wanted to say hi. If you want to talk about what is on your mind, feel free.... Hope to hear from you!!!