by minimus 17 Replies latest jw friends
Most Witnesses that I knew of were spurred on by hearing a talk designed to make them feel guilty over their not doing enough. CO's visits, assemblies and conventions motivated a few to Pioneer, "reach out", etc......Soon after the talks, usually, in less than a month, everyone went right back to slacking again.
Did you feel "motivated" due to guilt when you were an active Witness?
I was motivaed out of love to do more .. until they started with the " you have to Hate what jehovah Hates""
then I started to want to do less.... and I didn't want to be in the org .. I just want to serve jehovah on my own...
I didn't like being told what I had to HATE!
My name is Tate I will not Hate what you State
L8R T8R
I wanted to get everyone in the Paradise earth.....as I am
So the cute sisters would like me.
Thus when I got married, what's the point of doing more?
I dont think i was motivated to do more.
I done my 100%. Sometimes that was seen as less than average.
I felt guilty that I didn't want to do what some seemed to think I needed to do, but it didn't make me do more it just gave me health problems.
At first the conventions would give me a little boost. But as the years went on, I became immune to the propaganda, I had heard it all before a million times. And it seemed that no mater what you did in the way of theocratic activity, it was never enough. I gave up, basically. I figured I didn't have what it took to make it through the big A, so why kill myself trying?
They made promises. And when they welshed on their promises, I simply welshed on my promise to do more. "Sisters" still not liking me no matter what I did in field circus or starting when I donated toward a new building--and they wonder why I cut back on field circus and stopped donating for negative value. It's all a scam--they simply escalate the "blessing" to the next level without making good on what you should be getting for advancing to the current level.
Yet joke-hova wishes me to be content with the present things materially.
I just wanted to keep my head above water and kept going because I thought it would make me happy and get a blessing. I would force myself to go witnessing and all that because I thought if I want to be able to pay my bills and keep a job, I had to "keep seeking the kingdom first". If I felt tempted to slack off, my stubborn personality reminded me that 'this is what I promised to do when I got baptised'. I found it really hard to actually care if people didn't respond to the message. I was like, "They're entitled to believe what they wanna believe."
Actually, varying views of things the householders had sort of made me less convinced we had 'the truth'.
The guilt is a whole other thread for me. Pushed me to the edge of lunacy.
I really thought millions of people were going to die if I didn't pioneer, honest
Thing is it made sense to me that if God made the earth, which is so beautiful, he would want to step in and sort it out, but I just didn't realise they were lying to us about the evidence for evolution. Education isthe key to informed choices.
