Hi naazira, Before you become a JW, what did you like doing during the summer? What made you happy? Why not think about taking a vacation from the WTBTS for at least the summer to make new non-JW friends?
If you read Steve Hassan's books, you would realize that you joined the WTBTS because JWs are very good at recruiting new members by using love bombing and deceit. If JWs were honest when trying to recruit new members, NO BODY whould join the WTBTS!! You are a dangerous cult surviror so start living!
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,
Robert