Hi Happy... don't let anyone invade your space!!
Just because you've been studying for while and going to meetings doesn't mean anyone 'owns' you. You don't need to answer to anyone!
If you choose to learn about the bible, that's your choice, if you choose to go to a meeting, that's your choice.. if you choose not to go to a meeting, that's also your choice. They can't bully you into anything if you don't allow them.
They'll start trying to guilt trip you and emotionally blackmail you. Don't let them! Listen to what your gut instinct is telling you. You can 'feel' something is wrong. Don't ignore it.
You have the right and the choice to do with your life what you wish and if to you it doesn't 'feel' right then you shouldn't let anyone pressure you into it. Allow yourself the freedom to do what you want to do and not what someone else wants you to do. You owe them nothing!