Thanks for replies guys, appriciate it.
And sorry, i forget to mention that i received this mail about 3 months ago. During that time i was
too broken to tell my story anywhere. Here´s the aftermath.
I sent it forward to one elder of my congregation and also to my mother. Next morning i got
mail from my brother. He was sorry and told that he didn´t even remember sending those as
he was really drunk
I did forgive him. You see, i love him and there is no way i could cause problems to him.
I also told him that i send it forward to mom and *elders name* and there could be consequences.
And what happens next? He hacked inside mom´s email and delete the mail before my mom could read it!
Elder contacted me, said that email was horrible and did not have clue who could it be.
I replied: you dont have to be Einstein to figure it out.
Well in the end my brother confessed. Two elders visited his home and they got my mail printed.
When they asked about smoking&betting, he lied and said it was something he did back in
junior highschool. And thats it! Then they start asking about my faith! There was no consequences for
I dont really get him. He gamble, smoke´s etc. On the other side of coin he regularly attends
meetings and activities. Maybe thats why he is drinking so much, living in conflict..
But im not gonna talk about religious thing with him, could get another similar mail...
During this episode i was travelling abroad. So, coupple days before homecoming, i sent email
to same elder, that i dont want any shepherds into my house. Luckily they have respected my wishes
and left me in peace... so far.
Currently, im walking on the razor´s edge. I have wordly girlfriend and im intend to keep it secret.
And as much i would like to leave this cult -which has caused me lot of pain since i was born- i
have some really good witnesses friends, i want them to get their eyes opened too.
Oh and there is board for ex-jw for my language. Problem is, there is not much witnesses in this
country and i have reliable knowledge that elders are monitoring it. I rather write my story here.
btw. how do i change my avatar? That flying spaghettimonster looks so stupid...