CoCo's Anthology - by Zid - "Through a Darkened Pane"...

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  • ziddina
    ziddina

    CoCo's post #6976...

    From the moment Andy came into our lives, my parents, Arthur and Elizabeth Vincent, and I have been unwittingly elevated to an unusual level of awareness; trifles that ordinarily go quite unnoticed came unexpectedly into sharp relief. A mental and spiritual acuity gradually began to develop within the three of us, and its focus was the new arrival. This child, as the song goes, came into the world in the usual way. Nevertheless, had the scenario that unfolded during postwar America been staged within the sacred theatre of Biblical antiquity, this unusual child, like the infant Samuel, would have been dedicated unto the LORD.

    Andy was always a happy baby, and to say that he was just another cute little boy, well … more of that later. I mentioned that our level of awareness became keener because of my little brother. An especially memorable period was when elderly Aunt Rose came to stay with us for a spell after her husband, our Uncle Angelo, had died. His death was sudden and had caused my family and Aunt Rose, in particular, much grief. Andy was about six or seven at the time, I believe, and I - the typical, self-absorbed teenager - was in my early teens.

    One day, like any other (well, almost), Aunt Rose was staring out our home's one picture window, near catatonia becoming part of her daily routine. The sadness in the air was especially palpable that afternoon; it was raining a melancholy and indifferent sort of drizzle. A lusty, wind-driven downpour would have been preferable under these distressing circumstances. The old darling’s gloom hung about us like a bad suit of clothes. The stillness was shattered, however, when she, totally out of the blue and without warning, burst into tears and sobbed with abandon. Mom ran into the living room to see what had happened. I stood there like a statue. What does a teenager know about comforting the bereaved? I knew some Scripture but hadn’t a clue how to wring any practical comfort from the Good Book.

    Mom knelt down by Aunt Rose and talked soothingly to her. After a few moments, the old lady appeared to calm down. Mom must have felt satisfied that Aunt Rose was all right, so she headed back to the kitchen to brew my great aunt a cup of restoring tea. While my mother’s aunt was recovering and I was standing in stunned silence at this most awkward of moments, Andy walked into the room and went directly to Aunt Rose. I had the presence of mind to halt this intrusion of her privacy and made for my little brother’s arm. Before I could grab hold and jerk him away, he abruptly turned his head toward me and gave me a look that could kill at twenty paces. I dropped back, utterly speechless. He turned back toward his elderly great aunt, whose attention he had already captured. Her face was the usual blank, only more so, if you get my drift.

    Back into the living room came my mother, smiling warmly in our general direction and carrying a tray crowned with a silver tea service and laden with the home-baked goodies she is locally famous for. As she set down the tray on the coffee table, Andy tugged at the ottoman adjacent to the threadbare, old wingback that Aunt Rose had made her permanent home. Once it was in place before her, the little fellow perched upon it and reached out for her wizened left hand with his right. Young and fresh clasping the ancient and scarcely living.

    Do you remember the old saying, “Out of the mouths of babes”? This small proclaimer of juvenile good news subsequently gave it a new meaning, a meaning that changed our lives.

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    CoCo's post #6978...

    After a few moments looking out the window, Andy gazed upward toward Aunt Rose, and, with a look of slight bemusement, she returned a gaze of her own. Mom and I were standing at a "respectful" distance to the side and saw the little guy’s lips begin to move. Given our position relative to the seated pair, who were occupying each other’s attention, we couldn’t read his lips. The reason I mention that is because he was talking to his great aunt so softly that neither my mother nor I had a clue what deal was being clinched.

    With his hand still firmly holding that of Aunt Rose, Andy rose and glanced out the window with that expressionless look of his. It had stopped raining, much to my surprise. The clouds were breaking up and the sun was warming up the last shreds of a forlorn day. My moment of distraction was broken when I realized that the pair was at the door, yet hand-in-hand. With his left hand my kid brother grabbed hold of the old brass knob, twisted it and pulled a slightly confused but willing captive through the portal. Aunt Rose was not the only person in this diminutive boy’s thrall.

    Aunt Rose and her beloved grand nephew were outside for some time walking about the garden, looking at the saturated yet glistening shrubs that were catching the last rays of a Sol rather belated in arriving. Better late than never. Geese were flying high above the treetops, honking jubilantly at their crepuscular escape through the darkening skies. I seriously believe they were shouting down a riotous salute to Nature's golden child, who was waving enthusiastically at them with his free hand. Aunt Rose was looking upward and shielding her eyes against the fading sunlight with her right hand.

    Mom and I, forgetting totally about time and all practical concerns, were still looking out the window when Hernandez Terrace's odd couple traipsed through the front door. I’ll never forget what I saw next. The old lady was somehow transformed: she was smiling and had a girlish gaiety about her. Aunt Rose, under normal circumstances never loquacious, was chatting away about what a beautiful day it was and, by golly, we’re hungry! Let’s eat! She took off her wet and muddy shoes and tossed them to the corner with all the other detritus of country living. After pushing back several wisps of unruly gray from her brow, she marched resolutely into the kitchen, grabbed and put on an apron and started fussing about like she owned the place. My mother and I could only look at each other blankly.

    Andrew, the little scholar, had repaired to a corner of the living room and was sitting cross-legged on the floor, his nose in a book.

    (Reminiscences of Althea Vincent Romano about her brother, Andrew James Vincent)

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    (Well crud... I'm down to 39 posts... May have to finish this tomorrow...)

    CoCo's post #6984...

    It was not unusual for Andy to spend many a day home from school, given the mercurial state of the thermometer regularly placed under his tongue. For certain, time spent at home was not wasted on games or television (his parents had purchased a Dumont Console, circa 1950, but that behemoth with the miniscule screen was in the living room). School work was dutifully sent home by supportive and sympathetic teachers and delivered by Andy's best pal, Billy, when protracted illness kept him home.

    Needless to say, when Andy's eyes strayed from his reader on occasion, the first thing to catch his eye from his back porch bedroom window was a view that could not be hidden: Monte Sereno. It was a source of continual fascination for the would-be mountaineer. If not possible for his anxious but housebound feet, his fervid imagination would take the little mountain goat scurrying up the rigidly steep slopes. To discover what lay on the other side, to attempt further onslaughts of the forbidden mount, even if it demanded bivouacking, Herr Andrew Harrer was up to the challenge, with or without Doctor's or Mother's permission.

    One day - from the safety of his room, peering through another of the house's many mullioned window panes - Andy caught sight of a dwelling cradled within the dense forest, near the base of the cataract. He was so excited he had to tell someone - or write someone. He always had pencil and paper handy, but he needed an envelope and a 3 cent first-class postage stamp. Well, get the discovery down on paper before the building (why hadn't I ever seen it before?) evaporates into thin air.

    The young explorer described in detail what he had only moments earlier caught sight of, though there were some features of the dwelling he could not attach a name to. Once fully satisfied that he had thoroughly covered all necessary ground, Andy signed his document and folded it in thirds so that it would fit into the business envelope that would take it to its destination: Mrs. Mondale's class, La Rinconada Elementary School, 840 Monte Sereno Avenue, Los Altos, California.

    Find an envelope ... locate a stamp....

    Andy's astonishing discovery, seen by him for the first through his bedroom window, was no accident.

    The hills and their scarce dwellings have eyes.

    haunted hills

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    CoCo's post #6985...

    This would be a perfect time to remain indoors and curl up in front of the fireplace with a good read. Possessing many a good book but no obvious fireplace, I have to bolt. Cabin fever has gotten the better of me, yet again. I'm going to put on a brave face and raincoat and dash headlong into the blustery and darkening remains of one hour's daylight. I must see if the house on the hill will show its face, as it is wont to do. If hidden by fog, make its presence felt. Am I obsessed with this house? For some reason this seems deja-vu ...

    Drawn along my usual path, I surge forward, my frame a near-horizontal incline against the punishing gale. I find momentary shelter under the spreading canopy of a live oak, but it provides little more than minor relief from the rain and none from the wildly circulating winds. I don't mind. I knew what lay ahead the moment I stepped out my own front door.

    My attention is currently fixed on the peak Miner's Point, now enveloped in a wild and woolly atmospheric condition so different from that of the day before. Undulating foothills and their swaying sentinels roil in a sea of cascading and sprinting vapors. A barely discernible mountain pass is in evidence only because a string of diamond-like automobile headlights and blurred red taillights are flowing downward and upward respectively on a distant roadway cradled within sloping walls of earth, stone and tree. And there, to the right and far above the road, is the entity of all entities. Despite my relatively recent discovery of this mysterious dwelling, I cannot be any less drawn by its compelling nature than I can by this crazy weather that says come outside and play.

    Despite my inability to figure where I am going, i.e., metaphorically, I must confess that I have never before been this soaked to the bone and loved it so ...

    Well, on second thought, there were the rain-swollen street gutters of Hernandez Terrace.

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    (and another visual - this time, one of CoCo's own paintings...

    landscape

    My neighborhood vista. Miner's Point, the peak, is obscured by fog. So, too, the house ...

  • compound complex
    compound complex

    You are so clever and resourceful, Ziddy!

    You've given me hope ...

    What you just now posted is my "today" and those current surroundings which hearken back to my childhood life in the mountains. The landscape painting, above my bed, is much like what I view daily in my 'hood. It never fails to inspire....

    CoCo

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    CoCo's post #6997...

    Sleep teases, plays coy, retreats ...

    In a phlegmatic, lumbering slow motion, I vacate a toss-and-turned upon bed. It is not a departure marked by an old man's grump but a quiet resignation: slumber is elusive and her standoff is better ignored than pondered. Prepared in advance of actual need (a daily ritual in this household), Grandma's old Toastmaster percolator gets herself switched on. An industrious old lady, the brew-maker goes dutifully to work with water and special grind to keep me buzzed through the wee small hours of the morn. I'm up anyway. There's little chance I'll be hitting the sack anytime soon.

    I'm putting pen to parchment by candle light. The power is not out. No, but it seems more my need to become one with an unnamed interior atmospheric condition that could not bear the harsh, evaporating scrutiny of 100-watts incandescent. My visions have become an interwoven part of my daytime reality. Though they would easily be construed as dreams of the subconscious mind (when true sleep has been enjoined upon the willing, captive soul), the bright sun of a daytime's normalcy declares otherwise.

    Though candle light is difficult to write by, it is nonetheless soothing.

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    (Heck, CoCo, I'm just doing a mediocre job of editing and adding illustrations... )

    CoCo's post #7001...

    Like a mischievous sprite, a small but robust draft of arctic chill sweeps in at my feet and wraps its freezing tendrils about my legs.

    Because of this bewildering rush upon my shuddering person, there is no opportunity to gather my thoughts - what, dear Lord, is happening? This irresistible, foreign growth climbs further, reaching and encasing my trunk. Dagger-like probes bore through me - I scream, but there is no sound - and penetrate, all but arresting my fragile respiratory system. Mercifully, I am spared total shutdown of my lungs.

    The candle upon my desk, to my right and melted down to a nub, extinguishes immediately. Haven't I closed the windows, certainly the entry door, tight against the bitter cold of autumn's closing chapter? Unable to move in the slightest, I, nevertheless, can see about me. This unknown and malignant entity wills that I keep my senses. I can see - ahead and on the periphery. My hearing is unimpaired. Terror rises unabated and dislodges my heart and forces it full into my throat, screaming now impossible. I choke ... burning tears flow down my frozen cheeks. There is no thaw.

    The extinguished candle, of a sudden, ignites, and I see what has long been hidden from me.

    in the dark

    CoCo's post #7010...

    It is summer, in my mind.

    In order to maintain some small degree of sanity, I retreat into my childhood. Worries existed then, but they were those of my parents and other grownups. In that era of make-believe and pure childhood innocence, nothing of sadness, anxiety or anger was permitted to insinuate itself into our little world. The world of us carefree kids of the late 40s and early 50s. Of course, we were not totally oblivious to the sound and fury of our parents' fights, or the sinking of spirits when any of us got wind that Santa might miss Hernandez Terrace this Christmas. No, we simply couldn't allow reality to sully our daily forays into adventure, whether that which we sought out in trees, hills and streams, or I, in particular, imbibed upon in my treasury of books.

    I stroll down a country lane, once again noting the pattern of dappled sunlight upon the roadway. The play of light filtering through gently swaying poplars, standing tall and elegant, cheers me without speaking a word. It's early morning; the angled stream of gradually brightening light breaks in and around massive, gnarled trunks and shimmering coin-like leaves. At noon, of course, this commonplace though delightful phenomenon disappears. At that time there is no offering of shade amidst the poplars.

    Simple pleasures and daily routine set my life in order, giving me some small and inviolable purpose to my existence. I must hold onto this thought when it returns ...

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    CoCo's post #7014...

    Recent happenings close to home have bewildered me by day, terrified me by night. Yet, the shroud of fog begins to clear. I see outward, through the windows to my soul. A sense of tranquility replaces anxiety and confusion. A calmer state of mind allows me to sort through the simpler things. Scattered pieces of life's puzzle come together of their own accord; my intervention is neither required nor sought.

    What I have commonly referred to as the past, I now realize, is not a block of time and events disconnected from today, but life and living's continuance through to this present moment. A flowing stream, irresistible, from that so-called past of no discernible nor recorded beginning.

    In that timeless flow from then to now, I see myself not as participant but on-shore observer. Rushing past me are images of people and buildings and books. And so much more, the more of my former childhood surroundings that have edged their way into my today's reality. It is a continuation of what I started out as and what I continue to be ...

    Through nature, through nurture.

    None of this is so unusual ...

    CoCo's post #7016...

    Frances Fortier, our elderly neighbor at 250 Hernandez Terrace, died when I was around 10. Or so. At that age I wasn't overly aware of comings and goings. Unless, of course, it was a fancy automotive manner of entering or leaving the Terrace. Widowed some 30-odd years and living alone but for a mere dozen cats whom she adored, she lived quietly, unobtrusively. That genuine affection she showered on her little critters this kid peeking through the disintegrating grape stake fence could pick up on.

    She left behind a derelict of a shabby and creepy old house that could well have passed as a dwelling possessed by the other. Her estranged family wanted the lumbering and decaying house emptied and, subsequently, put on the market. Or razed and the property sold. I couldn't have known anything about the heirs and their hoity toity airs. I was not acquainted with them and wouldn't have understood their cold indifference even if I were. I guess you could say that what little I do know about the underlying meanness of some people is what I clearly recall from a conversation between Mom and Effie Watson, realtor and broker, when she stopped by for coffee one cool morning. It was early spring when Frances died.

    Mrs. Watson and my mother were discussing, in lowered voices, that all Mrs. Fortier's family (they were graciously ensconced in lovely homes in The City by the Bay) cared about was money and real estate. They never visited, much less would they do the simplest good deed on behalf of a selfless old woman who had spent herself so tirelessly for her now apathetic blood.

    CoCo's post #7017...

    "Well, Liz, I contacted everyone in her family I possibly could - by letter, by telephone - and no one wants the job of setting the place in order. While I can't say that I blame them, given the frightful condition of her house and property, I simply don't understand their callous attitude toward the dear old lady. She was always available when her friends and family asked for help - or a handout. That, of course, was many years ago. It seems most of them were unaware of her living conditions, which would have been far worse without your and Arthur's intervention. I simply don't understand ... I do not understand," Effie trailed off, staring blankly into her empty coffee cup.

    Mom, who loved helping those in need, was all too happy to bring over to Mrs. Fortier's home a pot of hot soup and the latest neighborhood chatter. She nodded sympathetically in response to Effie's commentary on the sad condition of the human heart. She knew the story.

    As I look back now at the puzzle pieces of life on my street, in my town, I understand fully that the Frances Fortiers of the world cannot, however deep and abiding their love, stand before the likes of cold-hearted indifference. Often I reflect back upon the scary old house, full of mangy cats, and wonder if the spirit of that dwelling has traveled and taken up residence with her family.

    They richly deserve that otherworldly menace....

    CoCo's post #7036...

    Billy is deeper on the inside than the simple and commonplace boyish bravado that the outside would suggest. Lying serenely and strangely camouflaged in a high but maintained carpet of green, Billy, lying on his belly, chin cupped upon his thumbs and fingers interlaced like the proverbial church of human digits, looks intently across the asphalt toward 248.

    He's thinking about his best pal, whom he doesn't see outside as often as he would like. As they both would like. The two boys formed a bond instantly when the Tobiases moved in down the street some 8 years earlier and the boys looked upon each other for the first time. At this moment they are looking at each other ...

    Separated only by a pane of glass.

    Andy gazes purposefully through his pane, knowing he has connected visually to his peer, not the odd, casual school acquaintance, but to one whose spirit is kindred to his own. He holds up his right hand and splays his fingers against the glass. The heat of his hand against the cool glass traces in steamy outline their secret code of friendship, loyalty, love ...

    Billy, fully aware of this signal's meaning, returns a like gesture, placing hand firmly against the air to meet that solidly against glass. Leaning hard upon his left elbow, trunk twisted to that side, Billy's arm remains fully extended, motionless, as his taut, leonine body continues ensconced in the green.

    The friends talk, but it is in their linked minds that communication proceeds. Neither too spare nor too many are the thoughts shared. Enough said, nothing in excess. A mere few minutes contain the unspoken text of the meaningful sharing of what is upon each one's heart and mind. Hands pull away and the electricity cuts out. Billy winds slowly upward, eyes still locked into those of Andy.

    Simultaneously, as a precisely executed ritual, both their visceral and visual connection breaks. Each turns to his right, Billy upon the crushed velvet of summer grass, Andy upon aged and cracking green linoleum.

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    CoCo's post #7042...

    Sally Anne.

    Rough and tumble, to be sure, but she's all little girl. At her tender age you'd think she was all about dolls and spanking white pinafores. And the like. She loves her coterie of dollies: some cry, others wet, but her simple, spineless dolls of cloth she loves best. Naturally, her confidante and best friend is Raggedy Ann. She, with her button eyes, keeps watch over her mistress as she frequently gets herself into scrapes. Especially those upon her already scarred knees.

    Though terribly young in the purely chronological sense, Sally is, nevertheless, a prescient child. She knows what's ahead, she knows her own mind. What she sees and wants, she gets. Invariably. Rather a good record in personal acquisitions for her brief time upon the planet.

    She goes to her bed to retrieve her supple, loosey-goosey companion. In the process, Sally scoops up Ann's erstwhile-off-to-sea brother and sailor, Andy. Raggedy Andy. Sally huddles the siblings close to her chest, warming them with her body's ever piping little furnace and ardent affection. After giving them both a good and apprising look square in their faces, Sally turns them around to face out her upstairs window pane along with her, she who casts a longing look to the pavement below.

    It is one of Andy Vincent's good days. He's out riding his bicycle, weaving up and down between the slope of sidewalk and asphalt. Sally sighs as she ponders her hero's two-wheeled acrobatics. Gazing downward upon the sailor's hat atop the red yarn of a mop, Sally wistfully coos into the little sailor's burning ear:

    "Do you want me to get you your very own bicycle, too, Raggedy Andy Vincent?"

    (Not sure which post should come next.. I'm going to skip #'s 7034, 7045, 7050 & 7055 because they seem to be separate - a few connected with CoCo's artwork instead of this story...)

    CoCo's post #7061...

    Theresa was ever the quiet and frightened mouse in her domineering mother's presence.

    After the death of her beloved papa, however, Theresa shed the baggage of purposeless servitude to this harpy, she who allowed Mr. Horace Gettleman to die. The town populace of Harrington, in thrall to Mrs. Renata Gettleman, prominent socialite and benefactress, knew only that the dear old gent had succumbed to a massive heart attack. Certainly none had reason to question the coroner's final word on cause of death. Theresa knew otherwise.

    Somewhat recovered from the shock of her father's death but scarcely past the sorrow of losing one so loved, Miss Gettleman discovered, and this quite by chance, that her father's newest and most vital medication was secreted away in a cabinet adjacent the fitted cases in her father's enormous study and library. She would not have been on a deliberate quest for the cached phial of life-saving liquid but for her happening upon it when seeking out a misplaced treasury of favorite poems. These were poems read to her each and every night by her father when Teresa Marie was a little girl.

    Much to her delight, Theresa found the missing book. The happy sigh of discovery, however, was quickly replaced by a gasp of disbelief when she recalled that her father's medicines were ever within his reach ...

    CoCo's post #7062...

    or ...

    Renata Gettleman killed her invalid husband.

    By no means was the murder an overt act, proof of which was delicately hinged upon so-called circumstantial evidence. No bloodied knife, phial emptied of poison nor smoking gun would ever turn up. Mr. Horace Gettleman died of massive heart failure. You can't pin that on anyone. It is curious, however, that his newest prescription of heart medication was not at his bedside but locked up in a cupboard. The key to the cupboard was fastened to a gold chain. A chain looped upon the lovely neck of Renata Gettleman.

    Theresa Marie, the couple's 21-year-old daughter, adored her papa and co-existed with her ever smiling but glacial-hearted mother. Theresa had always been a dutiful and respectful daughter, deferring obsequiously to Mrs. Gettleman and doting open-heartedly upon her daddy. When her father died so unexpectedly (he had returned earlier from of rest cure of two-month's duration at the Holy Cross Sanitarium and was much improved, both in spirits and overall health) Theresa was inconsolable, prostrate with a grief as profound as the deep and darkened sea storming outside their manor house windows ....

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