Hi everyone,
Just having a rant.
It has been over 6 months now since I was disfellowshipped for being gay or whatever it was, and I still do not give a damn. It hasn’t fazed me one bit. I’m happy with Jack and we are doing so well together. We even went on our first holiday to Italy the other week. It was all so lovely and wonderful. I’m also doing really well with my spirituality. I really enjoy reading the bible and I have found a church who teaches from it very very well. Really, things are just great, so much better than they were before anyway. It has been almost a year since I had any negative feelings.
When I was disfellowshipped, a sister who I am very fond of continued to speak to me and associate with me, in the hope that I would one day click and come back to the organisation. Today we did some work together and she saw a leaflet from the church that I have been going to. She started getting emotional and said she was just so shocked and upset with me for going to another church. I told her that she should not jump to conclusions. These were good people and they were teaching the truth from the bible. She told me that she was very surprised and upset to hear me say this. I told her that what they were teaching was absolutely right and I found it very encouraging.
We spoke for about an hour about the organisation and the church. I tried to tell her that the church was very very good and I couldn’t understand how she was slating them despite the fact that she knew nothing about them. They teach from the bible and there is no slant on it, unlike the Jehovah’s Witnesses. She asked me why I wanted to join a church, so I told her it was simply because I wanted the encouragement that you get from being with similar like minded people, as it explains in Hebrews. This upset her as she was hoping that the first church I would return to would be the Kingdom Hall. I told her that the reason I haven’t been is because I do not see the love. Instead I know that the moment I walk in, no one will talk to me and many will refuse to even look at me. That is not my idea of encouragement. Can they be surprised that I haven’t gone back and have actively sought another church? I can’t see how they are, considering they way they treat former members.
After this I heard the same old nonsense about how this is the chosen organisation, blah blah blah… I just switch off when I hear this. I just don’t see it. When I read the bible I see how many people tried to serve Jesus and these ones were blessed for their efforts. I just don’t believe that the JW’s have the right to just simply brush off other religions such as the church I have been going to, and say that it is Satan trying to blind me. WHATEVER! What does get me is that their own organisation is FAR from perfect and also has many problems, yet they cannot see these. The entire religion is so sanctimonious and extremely backwards.
After the majority of this tiring conversation, I was encouraged to come back to a meeting and go and see an elder. Do you know what though? There is NO point. She seemed disturbed that I am just not interested in returning. The reason though is simple. Who wants to return to something which hurts you and which you know to be quite unscriptural? She spoke of how many brothers and sisters love me, which I think is nonsense. If they loved me then they would come to see me and encourage me. Rubbish. The whole lot of it is rubbish.
The majority of the time, I just don’t care about the lot of it. I believe if JW’s want to live their lives under strict rules and be oppressed then that is up to them. However the days have well and truly passed where I will be a part of it again and I do not like the pressure of it. In the end though I am so happy with the way my life is now and I refuse to go back to it. Whatever they choose to do is up to them.
My dad has since adopted a similar position to me. He has come to the church with me several times and he really enjoyed the way they teach from the bible. It’s extremely refreshing. He told the elders that he just doesn’t care about the organisation anymore as he feels it’s become so unscriptural and unchristian. Amen.
Anyway, whatever!
Love Tim xxx