Hi i'm new here.
I've been dfed for almost 2 years. Despite the usual familly problems that I have had to deal with, I found I was living life successfully... so happy to be out in the world, experiencing new things and just enjoying the freedom to be me. I never really have too much time to worry too much about what i have left behind.
But that all changed on Sunday. My JW father who "serves" as a ministerial servant called me to tell me he had some health problems - allowable family business. Which we discussed for a short time. Then he asked how I was going and when I started to go into what I had been up to that weekend (camping with friends) he suddenly had to go cause he was too busy. It was hurtful and really upset me, I think more than it usually did. It lead me to start researching shunning on the internet and when my research lead me to the WT study article last sunday, it was like a light bulb when off in my head.
After spending so many years saying No JW's are not a cult, if someone asked me right now if JW's are a cult or not, I would have no hesitation what-so-ever in saying YES. And there-in lies my obsession. Now I can't stop thinking about having escaped the organisation, the blinkers that I let myself wear for so many years, the knowledge that my parents have been JW's so long they will never see the same light and leave.
Has anyone got some advise on how I can deal with my current obsession... I can't stop reading the forums, searching the internet for stories and i don't want to overload the few close friends that make up my new family with all this (as much as they love me and want to be there for me, none of them really understand how I feel).