The help and love you are currently receiving from the Witnesses must be making such a difference in your life. Loving (worshiping) God does lead you to a more peaceful frame of mind.
A word of caution, however, those who have told you that this site is for ex-witnesses are correct. For that reason alone, I hope you consider staying to read the stories of those lost in "the truth" for sometimes many decades. I have been in for six decades and I can personally sttest to the terrible destruction that my life as a Jehovah's witness has caused my children and grandchildren. I was raised in "the truth" and never considered anything else. One of the things that Jehovah's Witnesses do is to make you terribly afraid to look at other information. When I finally had the courage to look into this myself (and I am referring to looking in their own publications and seeing just what we say and have said, and the crazy things we have taught in the past (like the fact we taught about 607 and 1914 based on the measurements of the pyramid) and many more examples, I realized that this is not "the truth" at all.
You owe it to your children to find out the truth about the truth. Read "The Best of Topics" section, and look at the personal experiences as well, and DON'T BE AFRAID AS I WAS to look at the information. My family has been ruined in many ways, and their youth lost. One of my children has never had the pleasure of having a child of their own. They gave it up because they wanted to postpone it until "the new system". No one has a real career or the education to obtain one. They will discourage higher education VERY STRONGLY. Don't underestimate the impact this will have on your kids. Please, please take the time to ponder over this and don't let anyone tell you it is wrong to examine what they teach carefully, and WITH SOURCES OUTSIDE THEIR OWN PUBLICATIONS.
You have already probably been taught not to look at anything outside the Watchtower publications. That is one of the marks of a cult, only reading the information they provide, isolating yourself in some way from outside influences, teaching that those outside influences are dangerous and possibly controlled by Satan, as well as other things. I personally am deeply regretful that I never looked.
Please stay with us. You will learn things. If, after a few days or weeks, you still want to continue, then do so, but don't get into this blindly.
I have found most here to be wonderful people. There are a few who are somewhat hateful, (or appear to be) and it can be very off-putting to a new person. Ignore those posts at this point. Realize that there is a great deal of anger on their part. Some have lost family members to the blood policy. Some have lost family members to prison for the old doctrine regarding military service. Some have lost loved ones to death because of the policy of organ transplants being "cannibalistic" or they lost their sight. They died because of kidney failure for not being able to use dialysis, or blood fractions, which have recently been allowed. There are brothers and sisters who endured persecution including the rapes of thousands of women and daughters and the burning downof the houses of thousands in the country of Malawi. Check out what the policy of disfellowshipping is. If your children decide later that they don't want to accept this organization, you will be expected to completely turn against them, not even talking to them,possibly for the rest of both of your lives. They will have had no friendships outside of the organization, and will be alone in the world, shunned by all family and friends, and their lives ruined. You would not have good a good relationship with your grandchildren if this happens. Your children will be encouraged to be baptized young. This ensures that they will be in the position where this "disfellowshipping" can and does happen to them. Nearly two thirds of the young ones leave. I know many mothers who cry in the bathroom during meetings sometimes because they miss their kids. They don't tell you things like this now, do they?
Yes, you will find anger here. Lots have very, very good reasons. I bid you welcome, and I hope you stay and learn.
