So I've been working out of town the last month and I'm back home for a couple of weeks to attend a conference and some business meetings. My mom while I was away has been concerned about my meeting attendance (haven't gon in almost a year, except memorial) - even when I was home she was concerned. So today, when we met up for dinner - inevitibly, my meeting attendance came up as a topic of concern.
She's talked to me about it a few months before - and really it is out of motherly concern. I ascribe no negative motivations to her. And after examining the root of why I am not going to meetings now - it came down to this: I'm depressed and I just don't care. So that is what I told her. I think now that I said it, she will not apply any more pressure on me for a while.
At one point, she did ask "well, do you not believe the truth?" - I told her I do believe the truth - and I do here and there. I didn't see any reason to bring up my own doubts or concerns. That would just cause more panic on her end.
so - at the end of it all - I think she won't push it too much, although after a while she will mention it again just so she feels like she did her duty. I think I bought myself some time.
And I have to attribute my success in some part to the cool headedness afforded to me by reading all of your experiences (successes and mistakes). It really helped me to attain my goal of fading while causing as little upset among my family and friends as possible, and maintaing contact with those I love.
xoxoxox
DS