I'm only about a year into these new feelings/thoughts/beliefs, so bear with me as I'm not completely sure as to what I truly believe.
But as I have posted before, many of the "miracles" that are written in the Bible are yet to be verified. And by verified I mean seen physically performed and observed in our day. (Just a few examples - donkey talking, sea splitting in half, wrestling with an angel, being swallowed by a "fish" and surviving, etc.) If they are all so TRUE, why don't they happen today, as something normal? It's really puts a damper on my belief of the Bible.
Many things regarding morality in the Bible still make sense, and I apply them where they make sense and where I can. But the credibilty regarding "miracles" is no longer there. Heck I can't believe I fell for it all these years.
As far as God goes, I don't completely write him/her/it off. Humans are truly capable of creating and making such beautiful and wonderful things. I don't think it is too far off to believe that we too were created. But by whom/what, and for what reason, I cannot answer, nor is it something I really ponder right now. Perhaps it's my age that is prohibiting that.
The part I struggle with in believing in a God actually involves my JW upbringing. I have no hope of going to heaven and could care less about arguing at this time about my final destination in the future. But assuming I have an "earthly hope", as I have been taught, why do I/have I spend/spent so much time trying to defend a being I will never meet? I am going to paste what I wrote about this at this link. http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/bible/195425/1/Why-do-many-of-us-spend-so-many-years-defending-a-God-we-MAY-never-meet
As a JW who is part of the "great crowd" I will, as has been taught, never see God face-to-face, never meet Him.
So I "take in knowledge" about him, defend all these things that I just can't understand or explain why he would do them, and then still not physically see or get to know him?
When is the last time you spoke to someone REGULARLY on the phone, internet, etc. and not wondered what this person looks like or desired to meet them in person?
I do believe there has to be some sort of creator. It's kind of odd that things would've happened by chance, but that is another topic.
But this whole thing of putting faith in someone I have never seen, met, will see, or meet is really starting to falter in my mind.
I don't make any sort of effort to push these ideas on anyone. But it is very difficult for me to see and understand how people can "have faith" in the Bible or God with such simple logic. As a famous TV judge in America likes to say, "If it doesn't make sense, it's probably not true." And that saying sums up my current feelings.
I hope I don't flip flop in my beliefs as much as the WTS! Oh yeah, GREAT topic!