I admire all those that simply left. It's hard, because I still care for a lot in the congregation, and I know a lot still care about me. Plus, my mother knows how to put on the guilt trip. I vaguely expressed my concerns about the org. And she said:"What do you want to do, kill me." ugh.
I really do want to make a clean break of it and live my own life. I know by fading I am wasting precious time. And it's not so much being shunned, as feeling I let a lot of people down. It's hard to explain.
Plus, I want to take my time so I won't have any regrets on how I handled the situation.