So it was that we were having another emotionally charged conversation, my parents and i. In the course of it, they condescendingly told me i wasnt happy, because i just dont look like it to them (they don't even know me anymore, as we have no real relationship-- the never-ending assumptions they make of others infuriates me to no end!!)
my theory~~~ of course df'd family and ex-friends don't look happy to them! What they see (if they ever encounter us) is someone who is DEAD to them, has been publicly flogged emotionally and mentally~~~why would we fake a smile and pretend everything is normal and ok when we see them?
Speaking of DEAD, I asked them if they really feel alright about not having contact with me. The cold reply was something along the lines of 'we're preparing for your eventual death, like the Israelites something something'...and on and on, I forget the rest, as it never ceases to stun me when they talk like this. !!!!!
And I had to mention that I dont feel that priorities are straight when abuses, against children in particular, are allowed, but then its considered a huge crime to pleasure your own self. I said for that ALONE i would never, ever dream of "coming back" , as they say. The response was that 'masturbation' is arousing you sexually (no duh!) and that it could tempt you to fornication (what a wierd word) - and that one should 'deaden themself'-- and that one should 'train' themselves not to enjoy that, like an anorexic trains themself to not enjoy food! --( isnt anorexia a sickness?!) Each day I thank the universe that I woke myself up from the JW coma and am no longer feeding my mind such backward ideas
On a lighter note, the weather has been beautiful
