This is the first time that I ever refused to go the Memorial. Usually I make excuses or fall back on the 'maybe'. In fact, I have never stated an opinion that differs with anything that a JW at my door says. I nod politely, smile and listen... they certainly take enough punishment from the people who insult them, slam doors in their faces, and curse them out.
But she handed me and invitation, and asked if I might go. This time I answered calmly... no, I won't be attending. She got a puzzled look on her face - she knows I did an extended bible study with another woman and very nearly joined. So I explained that I did not believe that only the 'anointed class' should receive the emblems. (I had to ask what the *emblems* were called, because I didn't know, so at least she was engaged in what I was saying) I told her that the one memorial I did attend made me feel like I was somehow less and *left out*. I quickly explained that I had not forgotten the teaching about the anointed going to heaven, and the rest of us being resurrected on earth. I said I just didn't see that when I read the bible.
She then asked, So you believe some parts of the bible and not others?
I repeated, No... I just don't see what you see, when I read the bible.
She said that she had never of anyone feeling the way I described. She seemed sincere when she said it. And at that point, my husband came downstairs- I believe the witnesses know that he doesn't like them coming here. So we said goodbye until next time.
Personally, I think it was a good thing that my husband interrupted any additional discussion. I have a habit of putting my foot in my mouth when I get emotional about something - and I was shaking after just this one assertion - and then my words get clumsy. But this way, she left, hopefully with a thought she never heard before, and I didn't get a chance to screw that up. :)