Think I figured a work around. keep reading.
That was taken directly from the CD. I don't know what book it is, but it has the initials kc. Regardless, there was a little bit more on the subject, but in my mind, not a lot. And not very convincing. I found it surprising that the society doesn't have hardly anything on this subject. More on that in a minute.
I had always wondered, if the Gentile Times ended in October, why did WWI begin in July? Wasn't WWI a result of Satan being cast down from heaven, according to JWs?
As most Dub's do who begin to question their beliefs, I said to myself, "I must not have all the facts." We are taught that if we don't understand something, we need to wait, as our understanding will become clearer. So I waited.
Then I found out that the majority of historians claim Isaiah had more than one writer. Deutero-Isaiah they called it. Why had I never heard about this? I went to pioneer school. 2 weeks of intense study. And yet nothing on the subject. Needless to say this was irritating.
Fast forward a month or so, I had gotten extremely involved with this girl from work. We took it "too" far, and my conscience was stricken. I went and told the elders, effectively ending my relationship with this girl I cared about very much. Because it was the right thing to do, and she was Worldly. I was doing the right thing, what I was supposed to.
I should have gotten a clue when I had my Judicial meeting. I didn't know how to respond when I was asked if I made her come. Really, you need to know that? How is that any of your business? I told you I fornicated. Why the hell did they need to know anything more than that. To this day I can't believe I didn't run like the wind after I was asked that. But no, I was the ever obedient publisher.
I was reproved. For a few weeks I had nothing to do with the girl at work. One of the elders told me, and I quote, "You need to look at her as if she is the Devil." So for a few weeks she had horns and a tail growing out her ass. Lol. I believed this? Then I moved out on my own, and decided I didn't want to be a witness anymore. I stopped doing meetings regularly, and started to get involved with this girl again. This did not come easily, as I had lost her trust, and rightly so, as I had dropped her like a sack of potatoes for the 'truth'. But we started dating, even went on vacation together. Things were going pretty good, but I still had doubts about whether I was doing the right thing. I constantly had a feeling of being lost, not knowing what to believe, thinking there was something wrong with me because I couldn't make up my mind and 'do the right thing.' Then I get a call from one of the local elders, who says he wants to come over and talk for a bit. I say sure.
He talked about what I expected, and said a lot of the JWs in town had seen me with my girlfriend. They wanted to know if anything had happened between us. I lied and said no. So he told me that I needed to get my act together because I was going to lose my life if I didn't. I couldn't be walking the line like I was, and they were there to snatch me out of the fire. I was scared. Terribly scared. I genuinely believed I was going to lose my life. Regrettably, I spoke with my girlfriend about our meeting, told her I wasn't sure about anything, including if we should keep dating. That was a week ago. Stupidest thing I have ever done. I have yet to see if she will forgive me again. I hope she will, but wouldn't blame her if she didn't.
However, breaking up with her had a very good affect on me. An unexpected one. I finally could see through it all, and see how this 'truth' has been affecting my life. There is a book that she had given me, entitled "Taking back your life." It's about cults and abusive relationships. I decided to pick it up and read it. This book is not about JW's or the WTS. But if I didn't know better, I would think it was. It describes every