I have been "unchristian " which bothers me greatly
Grace, I remind you of your own name!
That is not coincidence, the Lord chose it for you, to remind you you are under His Grace and also that you are His.
Grace is not a license to sin but freedom from the power of it Romans 6
You need to make a conscious decision to forgive others and also forgive yourself, even if you don't feel like it or you do not feel worthy of forgiveness.
The enemy has been coming in for a while now Yes I was born again in 1989.But of late,I am beginning to wonder.
Kick him into touch :) You have the mind of Christ. You are a new creation, the old has gone and new has come. You are going from glory to glory...
Blessings,
Stephen