and may you all have peace... was, when leaving the porch of someone who didn't wish to answer and so hid inside, the "sister(s)" accompanying me commented on the "goats inside." I was flabbergasted. First, I was SO embarassed and afraid the householder's heard them - I wanted the sidewalk to open up and swallow us all. Or at least the car group to hurry and drive up and whisk us all away. I mean, hwat if the person was sick... or tired... or a minor?? Second, I was appalled that "we" even thought that way. Don't get me wrong: I'd been in many years by now... and so understood the understanding (i.e., "current light") about "the sheep and goats" at the time. "We" were sheep; "they" were goats. BUT... I didn't think we were supposed to HOPE... let alone SAY... that folks were goats! Where is the Christ in that???
I was sure my dear , gentle [fleshly], father... had rolled over in his grave... to think that I would be associated with people (not the Organization, but the "imperfect" the individuals!) who responded that way when someone didn't want to hear what they had to say. I immediately had to ask: what kind of God would get joy out of having His people THINK such a thing, let alone say it right there within 10 feet of someone's front door? Somehow, I KNEW (and I now know how I knew) that the TRUE God would not... and did not: just look at Christ. He would never had said/done such a thing. So, I started praying that we'd all be forgiven... and avoided working with those "sisters" again!
But I had a [very] hard time holding my head up in field service after that. It just never quite felt "right" again, although I continued for many years after that. I made it my personal goal, however, to try and remain positive and not judge anyone I met at the door... or elsewhere in field service... no matter how they responded to me (my Lord knows, I don't always want to open my door to strangers, either!).
Praise JAH, I was eventually "invited" out.
I bid you all peace.
A slave of Christ,