Hi, just wanted to share a bit of my experience, especially in my childhood. I've been a lurker for a while here. Dunno if my experience is unique (probably not), I've been in the JW for almost all of my childhood, then I became inactive around the age of 12 because I followed my parents when they decided to become inactive. Anyway, I was still trapped in the same mindset, it wasn't until around the age of 18 that I began questioning what I learned as a child.
Now I live as an adult atheist (I prefer rational thinking rather than religion) and I think I'm finally beginning to find peace, but I still get this feeling that I don't belong anywhere, as if I was an outsider. It's hard for me to maintain relationship with friends because I always feel that I'm not interesting enough for them. On top of that, I'm still trying to find out what I want to do with my life, I'm still young at 26 but I just hope I will finally be able to find an area so that I can get something like a college degree and finally find a job I can enjoy. I've worked as a graphic designer for 5 years but I was tired of white collar job.
Also, I realized that life may seem to be easier when you are inside the WBTS org, you have a fellowship and you don't have to worry about the future as Armageddon will supposedly come very soon but, that is not the life I want. I want to do something worthwhile, I want to get to know people and I want to make a difference (ie help people), I already worked as a volonteer, at a suicide hotline, for one year but then I moved to a new area to try to find new jobs and new opportunities. The hardest part for me, is when I get this feeling that I'm worthless, it become hard to get to know new people and find new friends.