I have been posting on here this week, and all I can say is this has been the best form of therapy! There are some AMAZING people on here, many who have been through the same thing, if not much worse. There are so many of you that I would love to converse with, but understand why this format is for the best at this time.
I am in the early stages of breaking the chains that bind, and I need some suggestions on reasoning on these 2 points. I have tried to search through the various archives as I am sure there is a lot of good info, but if you can help point me in the right direction, share your story, etc...I would appreciate it:
1) Hebrews 10:24,25 and meeting attendance.
2) Matthew Chapters 24 and 28 discussing the ministry, particularly the door-to-door work.
I have a couple of family members who are as disgusted as I am in regards to numerous events and experiences over the last few years, but they keep telling me that "well, the bible says that we need to go to meetings and go out in the ministry, so I intend to keep on doing that". I am playing things REALLY close to the vest right now, so I am trying to figure out ways to say it without saying "I cannot in good conscience place this literature with people, nor do I want to attend a meeting that is just going to leave me in a pissed-off, fired up mood". Having been on the other side of the table, I know you have to walk a very fine line so as not to be labeled as an apostate, bad influence, $hit-stirrer , etc.
My biggest thing right now (which is honest and nice and vague at the same time) is simply saying that I am so turned off by the hypocrisy I have witnessed that it has affected my desire to go.
Your help is appreciated!